Oh what a weekend indeed!!

Once again, I started my weekend with minimal plans, nothing major; and it turns into something so unexpected. I left work Friday with the mission of getting some "action”, and boy did I! But lets start a little farther back in the week, I started a new job remember?
I am still struggling with the wanting to just walk out of my new job. I know that sounds crazy. I realize I have to stay positive, and just be patient. Starting a new job is never easy. It’s just fear. Fear of not doing well, fear of failing. Ohh! (sorry I just moved and my body aches). I don’t feel I’m getting a lot of guidance, especially from my sup. But I am moving along slowly but surely. I’m secure enough to ask questions when needed. Last week was a lot of sitting and staring at the walls. It was very frustrating, but here I am on my 2nd week, I’m not giving up yet!
I was also going through a money crisis last week. I thought I finally screwed up beyond the point of digging my self out with the help of someone. I had bounced my July rent check. I was planning on paying July and August on the 11th of Aug. Well my landlord called me this past Thursday and said the money had to be I their office by Fri. morning, if the money wasn’t received court papers would start processing on the 7th. Hot damn, they don’t mess around. So I check my bank (which I have been avoiding), and I see that I am 240.00 short. I had no idea what to do, who to call. That was a huge favor to ask of someone. But alas I picked up the phone. My first call was to my baby’s daddy. (keep in mind I knew I was getting my severance check on the 11th) he was really nice, but they were going on vacation this week (yes another one), he said his dad was fronting most of it cause he was so broke. So call #1- I called my girl Angi, left her a message. This was the last phone call I wanted to make, I always go to them and per the FB they are sick of it. But I was desperate. (ohh I just spied a cute guy in my office, couldn’t get a look at his finger though) I even went as far as texting the FB that I needed something. Knowing full well that, that was a mistake. I didn’t want him in my life, I shouldn’t have been calling him for things. But at the same time it would give him a chance to prove all the shit he has been spewing. Well he didn’t respond, so I didn’t even get a chance to ask him. Nice, I know. But it at least it showed where I stand and that is fine, because I know where he stands in my mind. I called my Grandmom too, but because my mom was there, should couldn’t do it. My Mom would have bird if Gram helped me out. God Forbid! At this point I am S.O.L. I was chewing my finger nails so badly they hurt. I picked up Cam after work, and went home. At this point I decided that I would just write the check for the amount that I had available. And just see what would happen. I checked the mail upon arriving at home, and HOT DAMN my 401 k check had arrived. Talk about tears of joy that was 1600.00!!!! So to end this story, all is good on the rent front.
For the summer time at my new job, on Friday we get out at 11:30. I know awesome isn’t it? After work, I went home and nair(ed) the bikini line. Hey I was out to get some action this weekend, and I wanted it all!! I then ran to the brewery had 2 beers alone, left smoked a little, while going to my aunt’s to lay out. I lasted 10mins at my Aunts, the money was burning a serious hole in my pocket, plus I was getting creeped out being alone at her pool. It was scarey!! Her house backs up to a field and there all these trees and what not. I felt like I was in a horror movie. The “smoking” may have heightened the scariness..lol
I went to Target, completely stoned and spent about 200.00. But they were all reasonable purchases. Stuff to wear for Cam and I, and some things for my house. I even made out with a free bookcase, cause the girl forgot to scan it in my cart..sshhhh, I went home then to rest before Friday evening started.
I have to say, I felt so pretty this weekend. That doesn’t happen to often, so I don’t think its wrong to feel it or say it for that fact. Anyways… It was first Friday downtown, and that is where we went. We walk down and go around the corner and the first person I see? #1 crush! Ugh! My heart started thumping so fast. He was talking to a girl, and I really didn’t even look at him, I’m doing my best to ignore him. After a few minutes I realized the girl is his sister in-law..phew…. not take yet. He looked so damn cute, and preppy. *sigh* Angi and I had a good time walking around town talking to people. The FB was there too, he actually was at Angi when I got there. I talked to him, everything was fine. Later Angi and I were hanging at a bar downtown with one of the guys and his friends. And let me tell ya I was totally digging the one guy. Actually they are great guys and all date-able, the one. But the one was paying more attention to me, always asking his friend for a lighter to light my cig. And always quick to correct me if I said something negative about myself. Small conversations were had only between him and I. The plan was to meet up on Sunday after kayaking, but I never went. More on that to come on the reasoning why. Missed opportunity. Ang, the FB and I headed back to Ang’s house at around 10:30. We played a game of yahtzee, which Angi quit about 3 rolls in, her beer had instantly kicked her ass so she promptly went up to bed. So there we were, the FB and I. Both not sober, and I clearly not thinking. Well I was thinking, but more like a guy would with his dick tee hee… I had made other tentative plans but the person bailed, so i told the FB he was stuck with me. I had a bunch of shit and I wasn’t going home alone. So I took the FB home. I know I know- Zip it! A girl has needs, and this girl knows that, that boy can fulfill them. The only thing that, this girl didn’t know that they would be fulfilled over and over again the next day. Yea Im slut, I know. Tee hee. So the FB and I went home hung out we had a great talk So great that he spilled some beans. Some serious beans. How about everyone say a quick hello to the FB, hello FB!! Yes he found the blog. And he read and most likely re re-read it. There hasn’t much here that he doesn’t know, if anything he will only get hurt. So he should just stop reading now. Because he is not going to like what he reads about sat night. Tee hee. The talk we had seemed very honest. I told him that for the first time I wasn’t really feeling scared about repercussions because I wasn’t with him anymore. I used to be scared that he would trash to everyone including possible prospects. And there were some instances where he tried. But now Im not so scared, because I feel people should know me by now, and the definitely know him. So they need to use there best judgment when hearing anything from him. When it came time for bed, I didn’t even feel uncomfortable because again, ’ve been honest in what I want and what I DON’T want. SO I left him on the couch, and went to my room shut the door, and proceeded to take care of myself. But I succumbed to my sexual fantasies and called him in. hell this weekend was all about me, and me getting some action. I wouldn’t let him “enter” I was done. Once I said ok, the poor boy couldn’t even get it in all the way, with out holding back, because he was going to explode… and he did pretty quickly. Which is good, cause once Im done, Im done…lol (its all about me). Afterwards I promptly kicked him back to the couch…..mua ahahahahahaha. The sad part is here I was just thinkinghtat I was able to trust him but its gone again, that quickly. I found out that he went and told a boy that I had previously hooked up with, the blow by blow account of me and THAT boys sexual encounters. The FB out the poor boy on the spot and questioned him about it all. Of course I had to confron the FB about this. And now he probably do the same thing again. But I just couldn’t believe he would do that. It just goes to show me that he’s not at the place I thought he was with us,that along with the fact that he searched for the blog, to find out what Im too because Im not talking to him. Imso very disappointed.
Saturday didn’t start for my until 3ish. Angi and I had planned a girl night. And OH what a freaking night it turned out to be. We went and laid out for about 2 hours. After showering and getting pretty. Did I mention I looked good, oh my!! LOL…. I bought a new shirt that I just had to wear, and I was pleased. We went to see the devil wears prada. It was good, not oscar worthy, but good.We then went to our favorite brewery, then to another bar, after bartender boy persuaded us. And I am thankful that he did. Because the rest of my night was CRAZY. Im talking 3 hr sex marathon! Stop go, stop go! dizziness and oh hoe my body aches. Someone completly unexpected happened. No strings attached!! I can't go into it any further. I gotta run! more later