It was a lovely weekend wasn’t it? A little hot, but still enjoyable. So much to tell so lets get started, shall we?
Cam and I made it to the Zoo, and it was great. We woke at 7am, I was just as excited as he. We arrived at 9:10, 20mins before the Zoo opened!! It was great being there when it wasn’t so crowded. We didn’t have to bump into people walking and fight over seeing the exhibits, it was awesome. Cameron was such a good boy too, I was very proud of my little man. Since we have a full membership we were able to do everything for free. We rode the Swan paddle boats, Cam kept saying that he didn’t want to ride the swamp boats. I was like, Cam NOT SWAMP, Swan…LOL…. So we paddled around in them. He also got to ride a camel again, but this year he did it by himself! I even talked him into going onto the Zoo Balloon , I wasn’t sure he would go through with it, but once he was convinced, he didn’t even hesitate. I actually had convinced while we were waiting in line to get in to the Zoo. I told him imagine how proud Daddy will be when you call him and tell you rode on it!! Well that is all it took, he was sold, anything to impress his Dad, he is on board. We spent 2.5 hrs there, and headed home. Cam was asleep before we got onto the highway. Later we washed my car, went grocery shopping. He loves when I put the Beatles CD in we cruise around with the windows open both singing our hearts out. Hanging with him and doing things really has to be the most rewarding feeling in the world!
Gosh I can’t remember the weekend! Saturday I went to the Seafood restaurant that was hiring and filled out an app. They called me an hour later and asked me to come in Sunday for training, I said yes without skipping a beat. If I want to make money this is how my summer is going to be; and Im OK with that. What is important to me right now is to pay off my bills, and be financially independent. Meaning staying away from the asshole, who sucks me in with material items as well as things that are no good for me. So there I got a PT job, waitressing, yay me! Funny I’ve always wanted to be in the hospitality industry, but always chickened out. I’m scared shitless that I’m going to fail, fail at the one thing I always felt I was supposed to do. But I’m going to try my best that’s all I can do. Even weirder… I’ve mentioned many of times of I feel my life runs so closely paralleled to that of my Mothers at this age, well get this she worked at the same damn restaurant, but a different location at around the same age. Fucked up…LOL…. I can’t escape it…lol
I had called my “dad” first to tell him, and he is proud of me and my positive outlook. My Aunt is happy for me too. I’m lucky that I have them as a support system.
Man, I just got a phone call from a company in Conshohocken; I have an interview tomorrow morning. It is little further from here but the money is good, and a completely different industry. The best part is the controller is my old boss from when I first started out as a FT worker, so I have that on my side!
Man I am on such an emotional high this week!!! I know I’ll crash and burn eventually but I’m trying here, Im TRYING!!!
Health wise Im having some issues. Issues I can’t afford to have right now. And its not an issue that I can put off so Im kind of screwed. So at lunch I have to be making some phone calls.
Well I guess that is it for now.
tata
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Aggravation or just bitching whatever
This day is crawling by, I mean CRAWLING. So its 2:30 on a Friday that begins a 4 day weekend. Everyone here in the office is getting ready to bolt. I was informed yesterday that it is a must I stay till 5:00 to answer the phones. FUCK that completely sucks. Who the hell is going to be calling everyone is starting there weekend. What- I answer the phone to put people into voicemail? We are a professional recruiting agency, we don’t do staffing for last minute call outs, there is nothing important that is going to happen. Its bullshit. Really what I am doing is covering the boss’ ass, in case corporate calls and then they won’t have a clue that everyone left. Bullshit I tell ya. It hit me, I am just a lackey I am not part of the “team” that is reality. It is the first time in my working career that I haven’t been part of a team, and I want to be part of a team. I don’t want to be the admin. asst. any more!! So even though I have said I am staying, I am continuing my search, though not heavily. Oh yea, I was also informed that I won’t be an employee until July; which is also bullshit since after 3 months I should be perm. Now I have to wait till July to get my $2 increase and my benefits. I am feeling aggravated! Weekend cometh!!!
The 3 of us are going to the zoo this weekend. I’m super excited! We have a full membership so its free, as well as the parking and all the activities within the zoo. Yay, we get to ride the Zoo balloon, Cam is going to crap his pants!! I am going to have to a lot of talking to get him onto it. The plan is to get up early tomorrow; I would like to get there at 9:30 when it opens. Afterwards the plan is to stop by the river for lunch; then home by nap time. The theatre downtown is playing the Wizard of Oz this weekend; I’m gong to ask Cam if he wants to go see it. I know he wants to see Shrek, but I really can’t afford that theatre.
That’s about it for the weekend, we are paying some bills so there isn’t much money. My phone was off all week, I just got it back on, cable is about to be turned off, as well as electric. Ay! Oh oh that’s right, tomorrow at 3:00 Im going to this local seafood restaurant they just added a crab pavilion on the outside and they are looking for help; so Im stopping by there to meet with the woman. Cross your fingers I NEED a 2nd job!
Have a great weekend.
The 3 of us are going to the zoo this weekend. I’m super excited! We have a full membership so its free, as well as the parking and all the activities within the zoo. Yay, we get to ride the Zoo balloon, Cam is going to crap his pants!! I am going to have to a lot of talking to get him onto it. The plan is to get up early tomorrow; I would like to get there at 9:30 when it opens. Afterwards the plan is to stop by the river for lunch; then home by nap time. The theatre downtown is playing the Wizard of Oz this weekend; I’m gong to ask Cam if he wants to go see it. I know he wants to see Shrek, but I really can’t afford that theatre.
That’s about it for the weekend, we are paying some bills so there isn’t much money. My phone was off all week, I just got it back on, cable is about to be turned off, as well as electric. Ay! Oh oh that’s right, tomorrow at 3:00 Im going to this local seafood restaurant they just added a crab pavilion on the outside and they are looking for help; so Im stopping by there to meet with the woman. Cross your fingers I NEED a 2nd job!
Have a great weekend.
Im an addict for dramatics.......
Your Birthdate: September 9
You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count. CHECK
You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing. CHECK
Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.
You're open minded and tolerant.
People feel like they can tell you anything. CHECK
Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility
Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic CHECK, CHECK, AND CHECK
Your power color: Pine green
Your power symbol: Circle
Your power month: September
You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count. CHECK
You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing. CHECK
Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.
You're open minded and tolerant.
People feel like they can tell you anything. CHECK
Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility
Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic CHECK, CHECK, AND CHECK
Your power color: Pine green
Your power symbol: Circle
Your power month: September
Friday, May 18, 2007
Aggravation
There is a drunk man passed out on my couch right now. He showed up at 4:00am. Why? I don’t fuckin know. Where was he prior, I don’t fuckin know. Will I ever know, most likely not? Why do I put up with this? Because I have some serious issues ya’ll. I am so aggravated right now with him, and I don’t know how to get through to him. What happened to the man I knew a few weeks ago. The man who wanted this and that, and was always saying how the best is yet to come and so eager to please me and make me happy. Now he comes and goes and does and wants and feels he doesn’t have to answer to me or anyone for that fact. I’m sick to my stomach. I have seen the man he can be, but it’s like as soon as he sees it he recoils from it, and throws everything out the window. I keep saying I give up, I want to give up, I will give up. I don’t deserve this. The whole situation is seriously depressing me. I’m not trying this weekend. The ball is in his court. I’ve got plenty of things to do this weekend. I am not letting him ruin the 3rd weekend in a row.
This has just been a stressful week. What with issues going on with Asshole, Cam came down with strep throat, I found out I’m not getting the job in my hometown, AND I bounced 6 transactions that cost me $180.00 in fees. Yea, I don’t know how my car payment is going to be made. Poor Cam though. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him so lethargic. The poor kid barely ate anything for two days. He just laid there on the couch; he didn’t even pick an action figure. I glad to report that he is doing much better, besides the rash all over him. He was so cute yesterday after the doctor’s appt. I had to meet his father to get a check for the meds. And I guess Cam just isn’t use to seeing his Father and I stand around talking and what not ( I met him at the dog park) Afterwards he got all upset saying he wishes that we were still together. I told him he is silly, and that we both still care for one another and always will because we have him; the seemed to appease him. I’m glad the worst of this illness is now over, I don’t like seeing my boo that way.
Movies, movies, movies. I’ve seen quite a few movies lately. I love the blockbuster online service! Watched DreamGirls… LOVED it, music was so emotional I was crying at the end. Alpha Dog, LOVED. I am completely impressed with JT. I cried during this movie too. I felt so bad for Zach aka Stolen Boy… how could those kids be so ignorant to believe they would be better off doing what they did? Cam and I watched Charlottes Web last weekend, it was cute. I enjoyed this film also. Right now I’m in the middle of Thank You for Smoking, so far so good. Next up is Groomsmen with Ed Burns. Once they are watched I will return them for 2 more (free) movies, plus I have a free rental for the month of May. Holy movies! Guess you can tell what Im going to do this weekend.
This has just been a stressful week. What with issues going on with Asshole, Cam came down with strep throat, I found out I’m not getting the job in my hometown, AND I bounced 6 transactions that cost me $180.00 in fees. Yea, I don’t know how my car payment is going to be made. Poor Cam though. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him so lethargic. The poor kid barely ate anything for two days. He just laid there on the couch; he didn’t even pick an action figure. I glad to report that he is doing much better, besides the rash all over him. He was so cute yesterday after the doctor’s appt. I had to meet his father to get a check for the meds. And I guess Cam just isn’t use to seeing his Father and I stand around talking and what not ( I met him at the dog park) Afterwards he got all upset saying he wishes that we were still together. I told him he is silly, and that we both still care for one another and always will because we have him; the seemed to appease him. I’m glad the worst of this illness is now over, I don’t like seeing my boo that way.
Movies, movies, movies. I’ve seen quite a few movies lately. I love the blockbuster online service! Watched DreamGirls… LOVED it, music was so emotional I was crying at the end. Alpha Dog, LOVED. I am completely impressed with JT. I cried during this movie too. I felt so bad for Zach aka Stolen Boy… how could those kids be so ignorant to believe they would be better off doing what they did? Cam and I watched Charlottes Web last weekend, it was cute. I enjoyed this film also. Right now I’m in the middle of Thank You for Smoking, so far so good. Next up is Groomsmen with Ed Burns. Once they are watched I will return them for 2 more (free) movies, plus I have a free rental for the month of May. Holy movies! Guess you can tell what Im going to do this weekend.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
The Awesomes!
“Hey lets change our last name to Awesome and then have two kids named Totally and Freakin!” that was the best line from How I Met Your Mother, last night. Loved it! Loved the end to when Marshall and Drunk Lilly stopped to get food; totally cute. I watched the Sopranos before bed (again this week I couldn’t sleep) and Christopher dying, I had to close my eyes as well as mute the TV it was making me gag. But poor Chris, I knew something bad was going to happen, I felt it last week when I watched.
I couldn’t sleep; I laid there till about 1:00ish, I guess I drifted off because at 1:45 I swear a girl moaning having sex woke me up. How dare her!, here I am paranoid every time someone can hear my toy, and she moaning away with her windows open. lol
Cam is at his Dad’s tonight, I am NOT looking forward to going home alone at all. Truth be told Im feeling….. oh never mind. I wish I could go to my friends house but that is off limits for the time being. I really don’t know how Im going to deal with this new development. I am losing so much more than him. I have to go out once again create a whole new life, once again; new friends, new hangouts, new hobbies. Christ.
I haven’t heard from the hometown job yet. I sent in my application for a reference check yesterday. I did find out here I have access to the gym and the pool facilities for the Hotel we are attached to. And this is a nice Hotel. How fucking sweet is that!!!
I couldn’t sleep; I laid there till about 1:00ish, I guess I drifted off because at 1:45 I swear a girl moaning having sex woke me up. How dare her!, here I am paranoid every time someone can hear my toy, and she moaning away with her windows open. lol
Cam is at his Dad’s tonight, I am NOT looking forward to going home alone at all. Truth be told Im feeling….. oh never mind. I wish I could go to my friends house but that is off limits for the time being. I really don’t know how Im going to deal with this new development. I am losing so much more than him. I have to go out once again create a whole new life, once again; new friends, new hangouts, new hobbies. Christ.
I haven’t heard from the hometown job yet. I sent in my application for a reference check yesterday. I did find out here I have access to the gym and the pool facilities for the Hotel we are attached to. And this is a nice Hotel. How fucking sweet is that!!!
Song of the day!
I was JAMMIN on my way to work. People stuck on 422 with most likely think Im CRAZY..tee hee I am.....the song of the day is
Taking Back Sunday- Liar (It takes one to know one)
"Liar (It Takes One To Know One)"
All our secrets they are tailored trouble
Draped loose now around your hips
Your spotless instincts are valid
We coexist
Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days)
We got 26 days to work with(it moves, it moves, it moves)
We'll see what all gets done
I'm an addict for dramatics
I confuse the two for love
"You can't tell me that you don't beg..."
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days)
Then back on that island
That you swear by
Still barely can't afford
It's still a question of
How long will this hold?
Is it any different now that we are
Don't you go there not here, not now
(it moves, it moves, it moves)
Not here, not now
I'm an addict for dramatics
I confuse the two for love
You can tell me don't beg
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
Were all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
We're all choir boys at best
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
Liar (liar)
It takes one to know one
another post yet to come must have some TV talk!
Taking Back Sunday- Liar (It takes one to know one)
"Liar (It Takes One To Know One)"
All our secrets they are tailored trouble
Draped loose now around your hips
Your spotless instincts are valid
We coexist
Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days)
We got 26 days to work with(it moves, it moves, it moves)
We'll see what all gets done
I'm an addict for dramatics
I confuse the two for love
"You can't tell me that you don't beg..."
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Got 26 days to work with (got 26 days)
Then back on that island
That you swear by
Still barely can't afford
It's still a question of
How long will this hold?
Is it any different now that we are
Don't you go there not here, not now
(it moves, it moves, it moves)
Not here, not now
I'm an addict for dramatics
I confuse the two for love
You can tell me don't beg
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
Were all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
We're all choir boys at best
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
If we're keeping score
We're all choir boys at best
(Intrusive and arrogant)
Liar (liar)
Liar (liar)
It takes one to know one
another post yet to come must have some TV talk!
Easy? Who said going to be hard?
This is absolute bullshit, my horoscope has let me down. Because it IS over.
Quickie:If you're feeling less compatible with someone, give the relationship some space.Overview:It's hard to know when you should follow your instincts and when you should hold steady as you are. Meditation and regular exercise can help you get a handle on your personal power. What better time to start than now?
You're feeling less and less compatible with someone who can usually read your mind -- both of you are in a state of flux in your lives, and this is naturally starting to affect your relationship. If you want to improve things between the two of you, you need to be more flexible and let things unfold as they should. Stop worrying so much, and you'll soon see that the relationship is built on substantial stuff. You two are not headed for a breakup, though your relationship is changing.
And this is more like it!!!
Karen's Daily Virgo Forecast
Quickie: A chat with a far-off friend or relative will inspire some new travel plans.
Overview: Improving your physical environment has a big effect on your psyche too. So it's time to start sweeping out the corners, organizing your sock drawer and tidying the kitchen. Your spirits will take a corresponding lift.
Virgo
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)If you're traveling today, you're in for quite a nice surprise -- upgrades and pleasant traveling companions are in your near future, according to the stars. Strike up a conversation with a stranger today, and you could be richly rewarded. An in-depth conversation with a loved one who lives in another country or state will re-ignite your relationship and get you thinking about traveling more. It's time to schedule a visit! - Horoscopes by Email - Celebrity Compatibility - Dating Do's and Don'ts
Quickie:If you're feeling less compatible with someone, give the relationship some space.Overview:It's hard to know when you should follow your instincts and when you should hold steady as you are. Meditation and regular exercise can help you get a handle on your personal power. What better time to start than now?
You're feeling less and less compatible with someone who can usually read your mind -- both of you are in a state of flux in your lives, and this is naturally starting to affect your relationship. If you want to improve things between the two of you, you need to be more flexible and let things unfold as they should. Stop worrying so much, and you'll soon see that the relationship is built on substantial stuff. You two are not headed for a breakup, though your relationship is changing.
And this is more like it!!!
Karen's Daily Virgo Forecast
Quickie: A chat with a far-off friend or relative will inspire some new travel plans.
Overview: Improving your physical environment has a big effect on your psyche too. So it's time to start sweeping out the corners, organizing your sock drawer and tidying the kitchen. Your spirits will take a corresponding lift.
Virgo
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)If you're traveling today, you're in for quite a nice surprise -- upgrades and pleasant traveling companions are in your near future, according to the stars. Strike up a conversation with a stranger today, and you could be richly rewarded. An in-depth conversation with a loved one who lives in another country or state will re-ignite your relationship and get you thinking about traveling more. It's time to schedule a visit! - Horoscopes by Email - Celebrity Compatibility - Dating Do's and Don'ts
Monday, May 14, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
yes another post today, geeze!
I love this house, I want this house. Yes, it's yellow but I like it. Yellow is my FAVORITE color. This house is around the corner from me. It sits there all big and empty just wishing I was there to fill it up. It is super vute in my eyes. Whenever I walk past (numerous times a week) it, I get all sad thinking of what could of been or what could be.
It redone inside. The kithen is beautiful, it even has a little padded window seat in it facing the back yard. In the back it has one of those vine trellis (sp) as roof over the back patio. darling
ahhhh if I only had 289,900. LOL
Life is funny that way.....
I received an email from a friend today, and it was very sweet. I told him that he should become a motivational speaker. It was the same friend who came to my rescue yesterday when my car needed jumped. Its just funny because I "knew" this friend prior to me meeting The Ex. I was all about this guy. I actaully met him at my Grandmothers funeral (he worked there) and tracked him down afterwards. He made fun of me constantly for tracking him down, I was referred to as a stalker too many times to count. Although it was said in fun, I believe there was an element of truth. He really wasn't good to me; he used me, I tried to use him. But you know us girls, those damn emotions get in the way. Anyway we had fun, fun meaning sex, alot of sex, hot sex, romantic sex, crazy sex and it was good. But it ended because I had met The Ex, and hell lets face it we werent meant to be together.
We have now stayed in contact now for 6yrs, funny the guy who I wasn't good enough for sent me an email that says this......
Hey,
Got your e-mail. I worry about you sometimes. Don't cry or even get upset. You have a great life. Look at how many people would love to have an apartment like yours, a son like yours, a job like yours, and a life like yours. You have it good. I know we all worry sometimes about the little things. Don't! You can't change them. accept what you have... or in some cases don't have... and go on. No matter what, the sun will come out tomorrow!
I know I shouldn't... but sometimes I really do worry about you. Be yourself. Yourself is good. YOU make good decisions. YOU think well. Sometimes the people in your circle lead you in a bad path... myself included.
Hang in there. Tomorrow will be better. In case it isn't better, live today like it's your last. No regrets, it's not worth it. Call me anytime, you know no matter what, I'll be there! See ya!
It really made my day. Is that stupid?
Oh 1 more thing, damn it is driving me crazy that there is someone in P-ville lurking and I dont know who it is.
We have now stayed in contact now for 6yrs, funny the guy who I wasn't good enough for sent me an email that says this......
Hey,
Got your e-mail. I worry about you sometimes. Don't cry or even get upset. You have a great life. Look at how many people would love to have an apartment like yours, a son like yours, a job like yours, and a life like yours. You have it good. I know we all worry sometimes about the little things. Don't! You can't change them. accept what you have... or in some cases don't have... and go on. No matter what, the sun will come out tomorrow!
I know I shouldn't... but sometimes I really do worry about you. Be yourself. Yourself is good. YOU make good decisions. YOU think well. Sometimes the people in your circle lead you in a bad path... myself included.
Hang in there. Tomorrow will be better. In case it isn't better, live today like it's your last. No regrets, it's not worth it. Call me anytime, you know no matter what, I'll be there! See ya!
It really made my day. Is that stupid?
Oh 1 more thing, damn it is driving me crazy that there is someone in P-ville lurking and I dont know who it is.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Sherry Baby
Today started out so horribly, it’s ending a little better.
I watched the movie Sherry baby last night. I don’t think I’ve ever been so uncomfortable watching a movie, as well as so wrapped up in a movie character. Maggie G. did such an amazing job as Sherry Watson. As a mother with her own personal demons, I could relate with the character on many different levels. She was trying so hard to get back on track, to connect, but she didn’t have the support she needed. I knew her Father was a pig from the first kiss. I had such a feeling in my stomach after watching it, I can’t express exactly why this affected me so strongly, it just did.
I went to bed after the movie and watched Sopranos on, OnDemand. That didn’t sit well with me either. Poor Christopher here he is trying to better himself but constantly being knocked down by the people around him. I felt so sorry for him when he succumbed to the pressure and took that drink, I knew it meant trouble. Well at least Tim Daly has a new acting gig on the Grey’s spin off. I must say he’s looking good for his age, a little tired around the eyes; or is that just evidence of work done?
So the Sopranos ended at like 1:00 then I listened to Oprah on the radio, I just couldn’t sleep all these things are going through my head. Why is it that one day I can feel so optimistic, and the next just be plagued with doubt, regret, sadness, and constant worries. At 2am Cam came in my bed, and then I feel asleep. I had to get up extra early to make it to the bank on the way to work. I had to make sure I deposited money for my rent. Well afterwards my car was dead. AGAIN.. I know, I know I should of corrected the problem from the get go, but money has been tight…duh. So Im sitting outside my bank ready to lose it, I have no idea who to call. Pats working, he doesn’t answer Andy is working, so I commence to go through my phone and land upon Married Guy. He’s in the middle of a golf course, but he goes above and beyond and calls someone from his work to come help me. What a freakin nice guy. I then went to buy my battery, it cost 70 fucking dollars oh my god!! I though it was like $30 maybe $40. So my battery is sitting on my back seat, Im hoping I can get some man to put it in for me this evening. I got to work 1 hr late, and I was on the verge of tears. I just CAN NOT get ahead, Im plagued by bad luck, call it karma if you want. But damn it, I am not a bad person. My rent check will bounce now, plus I have my car payment DUE and a student loan payment. F.U.C.K.E.D.
You know what else is driving me nuts? My cat Remi, he keeps pissing in my room. What gives? He has always been a good cat, and now suddenly BAM.
Hey lets keep the bitch fest going…. I hate my constant coughing I sound like a 70 yr old life time smoker. …. I hate my fat ass stomach that doesn’t fit into any of my old clothes and if I did maybe I could do the nasty with that preppy boy I look at all day long. 5 yrs ago I would have already have nailed him, now Im this frumpy overweight lowly admin girl who coughs all day long which is SOOOOO annoying….oh I almost forgot you should see the hot ass receptionist they hired. The boys are all drooling. Ok enough Karen.
I finally received the PES assessment today in regards to that other job. I took it immediately. How stressful. I almost don’t want to know how well I did. I don’t consider myself a very good test taker. So if I don’t get the position everyone here will know I blew it. lol Hoping to hear something by Monday on that job.
Did I mention yesterday my cute little lamp I got for my living room at a yard sale this weekend? Well I did, and I plugged it in and put it on my bookshelf and it looks so damn cute!! It goes perfectly with everything! Cam and I had a really nice evening after work. (shut up, I know Im going backwards here, I never said I was a writer) I had promised him that he could ride his scooter. So we rode it up to my sisters. He got to play with his older cousins outside, and I hung out with my sis. I have such a yearning to clean my sister’s house. I just want to empty it and start over…I tell her all the time that Im submitting her to the TLC show Clean this House. LOL .When we got home, we had a spaghetti dinner and watched some George Lopez.
Yea Pat is still too busy for me, #1 crush still keeps me hanging on, barely. Childless tonight, not sure what will happen. The 8th floor window looks very inviting sometimes
I watched the movie Sherry baby last night. I don’t think I’ve ever been so uncomfortable watching a movie, as well as so wrapped up in a movie character. Maggie G. did such an amazing job as Sherry Watson. As a mother with her own personal demons, I could relate with the character on many different levels. She was trying so hard to get back on track, to connect, but she didn’t have the support she needed. I knew her Father was a pig from the first kiss. I had such a feeling in my stomach after watching it, I can’t express exactly why this affected me so strongly, it just did.
I went to bed after the movie and watched Sopranos on, OnDemand. That didn’t sit well with me either. Poor Christopher here he is trying to better himself but constantly being knocked down by the people around him. I felt so sorry for him when he succumbed to the pressure and took that drink, I knew it meant trouble. Well at least Tim Daly has a new acting gig on the Grey’s spin off. I must say he’s looking good for his age, a little tired around the eyes; or is that just evidence of work done?
So the Sopranos ended at like 1:00 then I listened to Oprah on the radio, I just couldn’t sleep all these things are going through my head. Why is it that one day I can feel so optimistic, and the next just be plagued with doubt, regret, sadness, and constant worries. At 2am Cam came in my bed, and then I feel asleep. I had to get up extra early to make it to the bank on the way to work. I had to make sure I deposited money for my rent. Well afterwards my car was dead. AGAIN.. I know, I know I should of corrected the problem from the get go, but money has been tight…duh. So Im sitting outside my bank ready to lose it, I have no idea who to call. Pats working, he doesn’t answer Andy is working, so I commence to go through my phone and land upon Married Guy. He’s in the middle of a golf course, but he goes above and beyond and calls someone from his work to come help me. What a freakin nice guy. I then went to buy my battery, it cost 70 fucking dollars oh my god!! I though it was like $30 maybe $40. So my battery is sitting on my back seat, Im hoping I can get some man to put it in for me this evening. I got to work 1 hr late, and I was on the verge of tears. I just CAN NOT get ahead, Im plagued by bad luck, call it karma if you want. But damn it, I am not a bad person. My rent check will bounce now, plus I have my car payment DUE and a student loan payment. F.U.C.K.E.D.
You know what else is driving me nuts? My cat Remi, he keeps pissing in my room. What gives? He has always been a good cat, and now suddenly BAM.
Hey lets keep the bitch fest going…. I hate my constant coughing I sound like a 70 yr old life time smoker. …. I hate my fat ass stomach that doesn’t fit into any of my old clothes and if I did maybe I could do the nasty with that preppy boy I look at all day long. 5 yrs ago I would have already have nailed him, now Im this frumpy overweight lowly admin girl who coughs all day long which is SOOOOO annoying….oh I almost forgot you should see the hot ass receptionist they hired. The boys are all drooling. Ok enough Karen.
I finally received the PES assessment today in regards to that other job. I took it immediately. How stressful. I almost don’t want to know how well I did. I don’t consider myself a very good test taker. So if I don’t get the position everyone here will know I blew it. lol Hoping to hear something by Monday on that job.
Did I mention yesterday my cute little lamp I got for my living room at a yard sale this weekend? Well I did, and I plugged it in and put it on my bookshelf and it looks so damn cute!! It goes perfectly with everything! Cam and I had a really nice evening after work. (shut up, I know Im going backwards here, I never said I was a writer) I had promised him that he could ride his scooter. So we rode it up to my sisters. He got to play with his older cousins outside, and I hung out with my sis. I have such a yearning to clean my sister’s house. I just want to empty it and start over…I tell her all the time that Im submitting her to the TLC show Clean this House. LOL .When we got home, we had a spaghetti dinner and watched some George Lopez.
Yea Pat is still too busy for me, #1 crush still keeps me hanging on, barely. Childless tonight, not sure what will happen. The 8th floor window looks very inviting sometimes
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday
Ok so I know you are reading, why not say hello?!
Small heart attack- is the Fiance reading this? looking at my stat counter info. There is Mac user in the Ex's town reading.... could be him, but cant reach him, ugh. feeling shitty.
and hell, what up Hawaii..... I see your peeking too! Aloha!
Sassy, up in Canada- hello.....
So I see you all reading, say hi!
This weekend was full of alcohol... blue moon to be exact. Went yard sale hunting Saturday morning, bought some goods. Spent little money, I was happy. We returned back to the Millers and commenced drinking. I think I drank the most beers I have ever drank. I was home in bed by 10pm. Sunday was the goat race/ bock fest...I wasn't really feeling up to it, but went anyway. I had a good time, but truly never felt into it. It was weird. I was home in bed by 8:00 with Cam next to me.....i dont know it was an eventful weekend but wasn't an eventful weekend. No good stories to be told. Apparently I missed the fun Sunday night at the Millers, but Im glad. seemed like a bunch of obnoxious drunk comparing their beer muscles. Im just sorry I missed out on the quoits.
Pat is acting weird. He says its in my head, but a woman knows. He is hiding something. I know this. Im not crazy. There have been many of guys/times that they try and make think Im crazy and Im always right? Huh Matt? LOL..... adult friend finder.
anyway work is boring AGAIN, slow slow slow, 1.5 hrs left.
Saw spiderman on Friday it was good, loved the alter ego thing. Is it me or did they really geek up Peter Parker this movie? Just to emphasize the "cool" Peter Parker? thoughts anyone anyone.
Small heart attack- is the Fiance reading this? looking at my stat counter info. There is Mac user in the Ex's town reading.... could be him, but cant reach him, ugh. feeling shitty.
and hell, what up Hawaii..... I see your peeking too! Aloha!
Sassy, up in Canada- hello.....
So I see you all reading, say hi!
This weekend was full of alcohol... blue moon to be exact. Went yard sale hunting Saturday morning, bought some goods. Spent little money, I was happy. We returned back to the Millers and commenced drinking. I think I drank the most beers I have ever drank. I was home in bed by 10pm. Sunday was the goat race/ bock fest...I wasn't really feeling up to it, but went anyway. I had a good time, but truly never felt into it. It was weird. I was home in bed by 8:00 with Cam next to me.....i dont know it was an eventful weekend but wasn't an eventful weekend. No good stories to be told. Apparently I missed the fun Sunday night at the Millers, but Im glad. seemed like a bunch of obnoxious drunk comparing their beer muscles. Im just sorry I missed out on the quoits.
Pat is acting weird. He says its in my head, but a woman knows. He is hiding something. I know this. Im not crazy. There have been many of guys/times that they try and make think Im crazy and Im always right? Huh Matt? LOL..... adult friend finder.
anyway work is boring AGAIN, slow slow slow, 1.5 hrs left.
Saw spiderman on Friday it was good, loved the alter ego thing. Is it me or did they really geek up Peter Parker this movie? Just to emphasize the "cool" Peter Parker? thoughts anyone anyone.
Friday, May 04, 2007
TGIF Mother *uckers!!
lalala lalalala lalalala..... its friday and its beautiful and I am leaving in 1 hour (2pm) to take my #1 little man to see Spiderman. It is super boring and slow here today, so I said hey boss can I skip out of here early if its not busy, and he said surrrrrrrrre go ahead. Half of the office is leaving early today. That is a perk here, it is laid back. Get your work done, then we won't complain. So I'm going to suprise Cam, and pick him up early. His Father was suppose to pick him up, but I asked nicely if I can have one more day with the little monster. I asked Cam this morning if it was alright if I take him to Daddy's tomorrow morning, I said I feel like we've been running around so much all week that we didn't get enough quality time together. He says- yea mom we need some time, just you and me! I figure we'll go to the movies then hed home to eat the roast I never ate the other night, and just chill. I am so looking forward to it!
Yea, I never ate my roast the other night that I was cooking for my g-mom. I put hte crock pot on war, because the roasat was small and I didn't want to over cook by putting it on low. We it was done yet when I got home, so I picked up Gram and took her to dinner. We had a nice time. Afterwards I took her to my place to show her my new tables I got. Oh oh oh, I made my Mother's Day reservations. 6 or so of us our going to go to this really nice restaurant for their buffet brunch, the only times we had to choose from was 10am or 1:30..... I chose 10:00. There is a family gathering at my Aunts house that I am not invited to. Incase you didn't know Im the druggie outcast, horrible daughter, who dates a black man. No sweat off my back, I don't need to be surrounded by such purity and goodness. pffft
I went on my 2nd interview this morning. I think it went really well. I met with the controller and we talked for about 45 mins. I have to take PES assesment, and wait to find out the results. She took me around the office and showed me where I would sit if I were to be hired, and I met the other employees. It is completely different setting there; but I can see myself there settling down.
Time will tell!
Have a great weekend...Tata
Yea, I never ate my roast the other night that I was cooking for my g-mom. I put hte crock pot on war, because the roasat was small and I didn't want to over cook by putting it on low. We it was done yet when I got home, so I picked up Gram and took her to dinner. We had a nice time. Afterwards I took her to my place to show her my new tables I got. Oh oh oh, I made my Mother's Day reservations. 6 or so of us our going to go to this really nice restaurant for their buffet brunch, the only times we had to choose from was 10am or 1:30..... I chose 10:00. There is a family gathering at my Aunts house that I am not invited to. Incase you didn't know Im the druggie outcast, horrible daughter, who dates a black man. No sweat off my back, I don't need to be surrounded by such purity and goodness. pffft
I went on my 2nd interview this morning. I think it went really well. I met with the controller and we talked for about 45 mins. I have to take PES assesment, and wait to find out the results. She took me around the office and showed me where I would sit if I were to be hired, and I met the other employees. It is completely different setting there; but I can see myself there settling down.
Time will tell!
Have a great weekend...Tata
Thursday, May 03, 2007
A job, is a job, is a job.
So have I mentioned that I interviewed for a company in my home town?
The company I am currently at, has offered me a $2 increase to stay on as a permanant employee. I will most likely move to the front desk, and then work as an admin. assistant, for the other division here. At first I didnt want to accept this; I would really like to get back into a billing position. But after giving it thought I figured why the heck not. I'm finally comfortable with everyone here, and I am enjoying being and admin. assistant. Well right after I said I would take it I received a phone call regarding the billing position. I went in on Tues for interview #1, and tomorrow is interview #2. This is the interview that counts; I will be meeting with the acounting manager. I really hope it goes well. This other company is within walking distance of my house, Cameron's future elementary school, and my Grandmothers. I've been saying these last 6 months while on my search, that ideally I would really like to find a company that I can call "home" specifically one in my town. This company is new industry for me, and Im always up for learning something new. I'm confident that I can do any job, the hard part is conveying that to my interviewer. I think it is a good sign to them, knowing that my present company is offering me 2$ more and perm spot to stay, becaue I have become an asset to this company by proving myself! I just feel bad because my present company would like to finalize everything but can't until I know if I get this other job. So stressful!
And if you can believe this, I swear Im getting sick again. I have the scratchy feeling in my chest and adry cough. I have no idea why!! I have not been bad, my immune system should be pretty darn good by now. I slept with the window open the other night, that is the only thing I can think of. I took an allergy pill, 2 ibprofen and 1 of Cams sorethroat,coughing tablets last night in order to try and fight this off. I don't want to be sick!! Im going to pick up some oranges tonight.
My horoscope today was super positive:
Quickie: Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. The future is very bright.
Overview: You're fed up with compromise. Making decisions by committee results in mediocrity. Let yourself go and trust in the process, and you'll find some unexpected delight. Go from moment to moment and everything will be fine.
Virgo
Daily couples love (by Astrology.com)Sit down together and talk things over -- it's the perfect time to figure stuff out. You're fearless and ought to be able to face anything that comes up, so reassure your partner that things will be okay. - Horoscopes by Email - Romantic Compatibility - Dating Do's and Don'ts
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Being forgetful can sometimes be a blessing -- remember that the next time you're in a rush and you can't find your house keys or sunglasses. The same brain that makes you forget where you put something also lets you forget about hurtful episodes from your life -- eventually. The pain or sorrow you've felt recently is fading slowly, but it's fading surely. Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. Keep moving forward, and leave the past behind. -
Hows that sound huh? Just what I've been thinkin!
tata
The company I am currently at, has offered me a $2 increase to stay on as a permanant employee. I will most likely move to the front desk, and then work as an admin. assistant, for the other division here. At first I didnt want to accept this; I would really like to get back into a billing position. But after giving it thought I figured why the heck not. I'm finally comfortable with everyone here, and I am enjoying being and admin. assistant. Well right after I said I would take it I received a phone call regarding the billing position. I went in on Tues for interview #1, and tomorrow is interview #2. This is the interview that counts; I will be meeting with the acounting manager. I really hope it goes well. This other company is within walking distance of my house, Cameron's future elementary school, and my Grandmothers. I've been saying these last 6 months while on my search, that ideally I would really like to find a company that I can call "home" specifically one in my town. This company is new industry for me, and Im always up for learning something new. I'm confident that I can do any job, the hard part is conveying that to my interviewer. I think it is a good sign to them, knowing that my present company is offering me 2$ more and perm spot to stay, becaue I have become an asset to this company by proving myself! I just feel bad because my present company would like to finalize everything but can't until I know if I get this other job. So stressful!
And if you can believe this, I swear Im getting sick again. I have the scratchy feeling in my chest and adry cough. I have no idea why!! I have not been bad, my immune system should be pretty darn good by now. I slept with the window open the other night, that is the only thing I can think of. I took an allergy pill, 2 ibprofen and 1 of Cams sorethroat,coughing tablets last night in order to try and fight this off. I don't want to be sick!! Im going to pick up some oranges tonight.
My horoscope today was super positive:
Quickie: Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. The future is very bright.
Overview: You're fed up with compromise. Making decisions by committee results in mediocrity. Let yourself go and trust in the process, and you'll find some unexpected delight. Go from moment to moment and everything will be fine.
Virgo
Daily couples love (by Astrology.com)Sit down together and talk things over -- it's the perfect time to figure stuff out. You're fearless and ought to be able to face anything that comes up, so reassure your partner that things will be okay. - Horoscopes by Email - Romantic Compatibility - Dating Do's and Don'ts
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Being forgetful can sometimes be a blessing -- remember that the next time you're in a rush and you can't find your house keys or sunglasses. The same brain that makes you forget where you put something also lets you forget about hurtful episodes from your life -- eventually. The pain or sorrow you've felt recently is fading slowly, but it's fading surely. Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. Keep moving forward, and leave the past behind. -
Hows that sound huh? Just what I've been thinkin!
tata
Tidbits....
My little came home. We had a nice evening, ate a small meal out together; a Mommy and Cam date. We giggled and colored it was nice. When I put him to bed he’s asking how many days he’s home with me; while holding his fingers. I explained that he will be back at Daddy’s Fri. night. He wasn’t happy about that; he wanted to be home Friday night. I said why are you getting so upset its ONLY Monday, geeze! By Thurs you’ll be sick of Mommy and ready to go back to Daddy’s...lol… he agreed not to be upset; we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. He was also adorable when he first crawled into his bed. He was wiggling all around say ahhhh my bed I missed my bed, its so comfy cozy. I started laughing saying you are just like your Mommy!!
TV- man a few glasses of wine combined with Desperate Housewives and I was bawling my eyes out…lol. Pathetic I know. I just thought the Gabby and Carlos conversation was cute then the ending happened when Susan was listening to Mikes message 2X!! then I lost it…. Damn TV, it’s why I always hold on to a tiny thread of hope. Even though deep down I know it’s over.
How I Met Your Mother was freaking hilarious. I was laughing so loud, my neighbors must think I’m crazy. Barney and his perfect game of T.P.I.R. Neil Patrick Harris really does make that show. I though it was cute when Lilly asked Marshall if she could be the big spoon this time while they were spooning in bed. Awwww. I’m a cheese ball I know! Im always writing on here what Im doing, but I neglect to say that Im addicted to TV!!!! My DVR is running at all times. I hardly ever watch real time TV, Im always catching up. Oh oh, I watched Entourage last night too. I LOVE THIS SHOW. The Gotcha scenario cracked me up; I was onto though from the get go. Hmm what else did I watch? Fell asleep during the Sopranos’, I’ll finish it tonight. I have a movie I have to watch tonight, I want to get The Queen for tomorrow. I have invited my Grammy over for Pot Roast and I know she wants to see that movie.
This evening I have to run to the Ville. My Aunt has picked my up a coffee table and end table over the weekend. So I’m going to go pickem up. It was funny my phone rang at 8:30 Saturday morning. I saw which Aunt it was and said oh she’s at a yard sale, and low a behold she was. She was calling for Cam’s sizes; she picked him up a few outfits. I’m excited for a new coffee/ end tables. I just rearranged my living room; hung up some more pictures, and added some foliage. Have to run to Zerns this weekend and get some heavier pots though.
Damn, two days have gone by. I got so wrapped up in work on Tues that I never got around to finishing the above post. So let’s continue shall we? I picked up my new tables from my Aunts house the other night. They are very nice, and they go well with my living room. Angi and Andy were so impressed with the goods that we are all suppose to go yard sale searching Saturday morning.
I pretty cranky today. My little friend is approaching, Im stressing about bills. Rent was due on the 1st, I got till the 5th to have it in. It’s not going to be a fun filled weekend.
TV- man a few glasses of wine combined with Desperate Housewives and I was bawling my eyes out…lol. Pathetic I know. I just thought the Gabby and Carlos conversation was cute then the ending happened when Susan was listening to Mikes message 2X!! then I lost it…. Damn TV, it’s why I always hold on to a tiny thread of hope. Even though deep down I know it’s over.
How I Met Your Mother was freaking hilarious. I was laughing so loud, my neighbors must think I’m crazy. Barney and his perfect game of T.P.I.R. Neil Patrick Harris really does make that show. I though it was cute when Lilly asked Marshall if she could be the big spoon this time while they were spooning in bed. Awwww. I’m a cheese ball I know! Im always writing on here what Im doing, but I neglect to say that Im addicted to TV!!!! My DVR is running at all times. I hardly ever watch real time TV, Im always catching up. Oh oh, I watched Entourage last night too. I LOVE THIS SHOW. The Gotcha scenario cracked me up; I was onto though from the get go. Hmm what else did I watch? Fell asleep during the Sopranos’, I’ll finish it tonight. I have a movie I have to watch tonight, I want to get The Queen for tomorrow. I have invited my Grammy over for Pot Roast and I know she wants to see that movie.
This evening I have to run to the Ville. My Aunt has picked my up a coffee table and end table over the weekend. So I’m going to go pickem up. It was funny my phone rang at 8:30 Saturday morning. I saw which Aunt it was and said oh she’s at a yard sale, and low a behold she was. She was calling for Cam’s sizes; she picked him up a few outfits. I’m excited for a new coffee/ end tables. I just rearranged my living room; hung up some more pictures, and added some foliage. Have to run to Zerns this weekend and get some heavier pots though.
Damn, two days have gone by. I got so wrapped up in work on Tues that I never got around to finishing the above post. So let’s continue shall we? I picked up my new tables from my Aunts house the other night. They are very nice, and they go well with my living room. Angi and Andy were so impressed with the goods that we are all suppose to go yard sale searching Saturday morning.
I pretty cranky today. My little friend is approaching, Im stressing about bills. Rent was due on the 1st, I got till the 5th to have it in. It’s not going to be a fun filled weekend.
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