deleting this blog today. time to move on. T- i'll let you know where you can find me. Figured Id start back up in a new home since I have all this downtime at work to write *wink*
everything on here is SO outdated and frankly embarassing. My late 20's were pretty damn wild. But I sure did f*ck up my life.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Monday, May 03, 2010
A new start..perhaps
So Im sitting here on this very rainy Monday morning, my last Monday morning unemployed sippin coffee and just enjoyng it. I think I may have a lot of those moments this week; the countdown is on. Do not get me wrong, I am thrilled to be going back to work, I m also just terrified, It has been 1yr and 7months that Ive been living a life of mostly leisure. Money is tough, it may actually be even tougher once I get back to work but I feel this is an opportunity that I cant pass up! I am happy to be billing again. It is a job I really enjoy. Im excited about getting some more AP and AR duties under my belt as well. I see this being a new start, a fresh start. . Im trying not to fret about the "what ifs" Im going to repeat positive things over and over again. I know what I can do, I know I am smart, and likeable. yea, yea tha sounds great...LOL
The commute factor is the thing that worries me most..I have Cam, Grandmom, and getting pulled over to stress about every freakin morning, till I have the money to make everything "better"
On another note..I should reread my last post. I was pretty upset with the bf at the time. We are together, things are different. This relationship moved way differently then most of my previous. I went from living with the guy practically immediately to him now living an hour away and hardly ever seeing him. I think this is best for now. Only so we can lear more about eachother, and meander down this road of a relationship. Otherwise Id be knocked up or dragging him to thr alter, because I tend to want to rush everything. I want instant gratification. All part of being an addict. *wink* I hate missing him, but it makes seeing him all the better. We make out like high school kids. He makes me feel things I havent felt since Cams Dad. And that is so faded I dont even remember Im just assuming. haha Wow I HAVE come along way. :)
Anyways... slow and steady winds the race. That will be my motto for my new job (starting at the bottom) and this relationship.
The commute factor is the thing that worries me most..I have Cam, Grandmom, and getting pulled over to stress about every freakin morning, till I have the money to make everything "better"
On another note..I should reread my last post. I was pretty upset with the bf at the time. We are together, things are different. This relationship moved way differently then most of my previous. I went from living with the guy practically immediately to him now living an hour away and hardly ever seeing him. I think this is best for now. Only so we can lear more about eachother, and meander down this road of a relationship. Otherwise Id be knocked up or dragging him to thr alter, because I tend to want to rush everything. I want instant gratification. All part of being an addict. *wink* I hate missing him, but it makes seeing him all the better. We make out like high school kids. He makes me feel things I havent felt since Cams Dad. And that is so faded I dont even remember Im just assuming. haha Wow I HAVE come along way. :)
Anyways... slow and steady winds the race. That will be my motto for my new job (starting at the bottom) and this relationship.
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